How's this for exciting!?

Well, where to start... See a couple of months ago I found out I was pregnant. Kind of a surprise, but we were excited, we always go back and forth about wanting one more but can never really decide. Well, we didn't tell anyone. I like to wait until at least 10 or 12 weeks, anyway, just to make sure, and then other people were pregnant and my sister was due and so there just wasn't really a good time to tell people, so we waited, and waited... I went in for an appointment on Monday to hear the heart beat, and there wasn't one. I should've been 12 weeks. So we went in and had an ultra sound and the baby wasn't alive. So... I was just going to let it "pass" I've had a couple of friends over the last few months that have miscarried at home and I heard theres alot of blood but its ok. So we still didn't tell everyone. My sister had her baby on Monday and I did not want to call my mom, who's down in Utah with Michelle, and ruin their excitement of a new baby.

Well, Saturday, about 1 am I started cramping, so I knew it was about to happen. At about 5 am I started bleeding and so I just went and sat on the toilet (sorry, gross I know...) Jacob woke up around 6 and found me still sitting on the toilet. The blood was just flowing out, so I didn't want to move. A few minutes later I felt myself starting to pass out. I've only done that one other time, after my last epidural, and sitting in my bathroom all alone I was terrified, what was going to happen, was I going to fall and hit my head? I was trying to call Jacob but I couldn't get my voice loud enough. Anyway, apparently he walked in a minute later and saw me passed out, and he couldn't get me to wake up. A few minutes went by and then I did come around, I guess, I don't remember, because then I passed right back out again. So he called 911. I came around a few minutes later to sirens... UGH! I was like "I'm fine, make them leave. I'm fine, I'm fine" I kept saying... I was laying on the floor at this point in the bathroom and losing blood like crazy. So the paramedics came, and I seemed to feel better. They made me sit up and talk to them and stuff, and then I told them to go, I didn't need the hosptiol. So they left. Jacob called Sonja and asked her to come over... Which she did with a 1/2 gallon of chocolate ice cream that we ate on the bathroom in the floor! I started to pass out one more time, and I remember thinking, "OK, the blood is normal but the passing out? So many times?" I was kinda starting to freak out. So I told Jacob that I thought I needed to go to the hospitol. I thought I could just walk out to the car, I did not want another ambulance coming. So I sat up... and started to go out again. So, he called the ambulance. They came and sat in the bathroom for a while, and then asked if I could get up to a sitting postition on the toilet to sit inside this chair thing to carry me out to the stretcher which wouldn't fit in the bathroom. So I sit up and in the chair thing, and pass out, again. The next thing I know I'm being carried out on the stretcher with an oxygen mask on my face.

The ambulance ride was uneventful. Once I came to, I was fine. Then we got to the emergency room and I'm not really sure what happened then. Jacob could tell it better. I passed out a few more times, my heart was stopping and they had to give me something to get it going again. I think a shot of adrenaline or something that got it beating again. My blood pressure was really low all morning and I just couldn't stay conscience. It was really wierd. Apparrently, I was just losing so much blood. They were giving me transfusions and the I remember the ER Doc saying, "you've got to stop bleeding so much, we can't get it in fast enough." Jacob said the nurse, (who was Amy Shafer Dilger, by the way), was trying to squeeze the bags of blood so they would pump in me faster. Our good friend, Billy Neff, came over and him and Jacob gave me a blessing just a couple of minutes before they wheeled me away for the surgery. I went in for the DNC, passed out one more time, as they were wheeling me down to the surgery room, and the next thing I remember I was in recovery. After the surgery was finished the bleeding was under control. I got some more blood, lots of IV's full of fluid, (you should see how many holes I have; both arms, in numerous places, both backs of my hands, fingers, wrists... they just kept poking needles in me!) It's wierd to think I have someone else's blood in me. I'd never thought about that before. The doctor was asking if I was ok with the transfusions, and I remember thinking, whatever it takes to keep me alive, just do it. I don't know what else you'd do, with the rate I was losing blood it didn't seem like there were any other options.

Jacob was so strong. I know he was really struggling seeing me like that. I'd look at him and every once in a while and see tears, or him shaking, but he never left my side or gave me any reason to think that everything was not going to be ok. He was always helping the doctor's and nurses. One of them asked if he had medical training. He's so good at it all. I love him so much and am so grateful for him in my life. I don't know what I'd do without him. I am so grateful that he was willing to ask for help, and knew when we needed it. He could be telling a totally different story if we'd waited 10 or 15 more minutes to call for help and my heart and decided to take its little break while we were at home alone. It really makes you think though how quickly you could loose everything. I am so grateful that everything turned out ok and looking at me today, I don't think anyone would be able to tell that I almost died yesterday. Its hard for me to even believe. We are going to fill out our wills though, tomorrow. A couple of times I've tried to sit down and figure it out and it always makes me so sad to think about one or both of us not being here, but its even worse to think that if the worse case scenario happened, you would have no say at all in what happens to your children.

Thank you to everyone who has helped out. My poor friend Sonja, who cleaned up my blood that was all over my bathroom after we left and watched my kids all day. Rachel and Maya for staying the night with the kids and all day Sunday. Billy for the blessing, all of the phone calls from everyone. I don't have the need very often to depend on the people around me, but I am so thankful for all of the wonderful friends and family I have and for all they did for our family this weekend. I never had even one moment of worry that my kids weren't being taken care of. And that is priceless, to know that when your not there other people are willing to give up their time to help you in whatever way you need it. THANK YOU EVERYONE SO MUCH! I LOVE YOU ALL AND AM SO THANKFUL FOR YOUR FRIENDSHIPS!

Silverwood

We went to Silverwood this past weekend with Dan & Stacey Ostler and their family and what fun we had. We went up Friday and did the Theme Park, hit as many roller coasters as we could, and left pretty late that night. We stayed at Stoneridge, a condo just about 15 minutes from the park. On Saturday morning the kids got up and did some of the fun things there, racketball, basketball, swimming, etc and then we headed back to the park when they opened. Half way throught the day we went into the water park and then back to finish up everyone's favorite rides. The kids did awesome! Landon loved the coasters and did any he was tall enough for, which was most of them. He was very disappointed when he wasn't tall enough. Kyson on Sat. (with a little prodding from the Ostler kids) did the new, BIG UPSIDE DOWN TOTALLY SCARY BEST COASTER I'VE EVER DONE coaster. Its called Aftershock, and it is unbelievable! Here are some pictures of our exciting weekend.
getting soaking wet on Big Thunder Mountain, I'm pretty sure Jacob gave someone money to get spray us so he could get a good picture!

We are all in the 2nd-5th rows; Kyson & Ky, Landon & Me, Hailey & Alaina, Stacey & Case! I can't believe the little boys did these rides!

Here is a tame train, the kids did a few times. How cute are they all?

Ky, Kyson, Landon and Me coming down the Log Ride, this was another favorite!

Kyson doing the bumper cars...

Kennedy loved the water park!

Landon and Hailey at the Water park.

Kyson at the water park!

This is pretty much what Kennedy did all day... Rough life, huh?

Me & Landon, Ky, Kyson & Alaina, Dan, Haily & Case on the Ferris Wheel, which I would stay away from. There were like 15 people in front of us and it took probably 40 minutes before we got on it. Probably the longest line we waited in all day!

Well, there's our fun trip! I think this will be another annual thing. The kids sure have a great time!

Cheerios anyone?

Well, not that it couldn't have been worse, but I swear we go from one mess in our house to another. I feel like I can't keep up with these kids! So, Kennedy has pretty much become totally self sufficient, at the young age of 18 months. She will go to the pantry and pull out the cereal, reach her little hand through the opening, grab a handful of cheerios, put them into a cup (usually) and get a spoon and eat them. Its really quite cute, actually. Until I walked into this the other day...

What I love here is that she has her spoon and is just going to sit and eat them. Who cares that they are on the floor? Makes no difference to her!

The cereal is now one shelf higher!

Landon 4th Birthday

Landon turned 4 on July 25th! We had such a busy week that week, but I was able to pull off a pretty great party, and cake, if I do say so myself! We had tons of boys between the ages of 4-7 running around crazy, with a few girls thrown into the mix! It was a super fun day...

Breakfast time! Good Morning Landon!

I just love this face he is making... before blowing out the candles!

We blew up the slide and pool and the kids just played outside...

Landon and Carson Neff swimming...

His birthday cake... He wanted one with "all the Cars!" I got as many as I could on there.

Happy Birthday Landon! We love you!

"No pictures for you!"

Well, I have been waiting to blog about all of the FUN things we have done over the last couple of weeks... I've been having problems with my computer off and on and have just got tired of fighting with it, so I've been putting it off. Well, apparently it got tired of me messing with it and gave up the ghost. It crashed! and it crashed hard. I have lost... all of our pictures, all of my digitally scrapbooked pages, from last Chrstmas to now (do you know how much time goes into those pages???), all of my fonts for my vinyl lettering business, all of my sayings I've worked on for my Vinyl lettering business, and oh, did I mention... All of our Quickbooks accounting for the business, that is solely on my computer, with no back up since last December. That is 8 months of data! I think I want to cry. I don't even know where to start.

So, now that I have no pictures, I can just tell you what we've been up to. Let's see... Jacob climbed up Mt. Adams with some friends, not on bike, just hiking up. He loved it and has a new found hobby. SERIOUSLY! I don't think I can take any more "hobbies!"

Then we went White Water Rafting down the Deschutes River with a bunch of friends. We had 3 boats of people and it was a blast. We were all soaked before we even got in the rafts on the river, I think we owe Jacob for that, and the water fights didn't stop until we were to the very end. I think we finally called some sort of truce, after being soaking wet for 5 hours. It was so fun though. I think we will make it an annual thing for anyone that wants to plan on going next year. Everyone loved it.

Last week, Jacob and a couple more friends rode their bikes around Mt. Rainier, 150 miles with 10,000 feet of climbing! I don't know how they do it, or why, frankly.

Jacob had a birthday last week, he turned 34! I felt bad 'cuz it kinda got lort in the shuffle of everything else thats going on. We did go see the Dark Knight twice. We loved it!

Throw in 2 visits from old high school buddies with lots of "girl time" (so fun to have you guys come, Dawn and Joy), some time on the river, the water park in Moses Lake, swimming lessons, Landon's 4th bday, which hopefully will get his own post eventually, a Parrish family reunion... and this weekend, we are going to Silverwood with the Ostlers and hanging out up there for a couple of days. We have had a pretty busy summer!

The fair is coming up in a couple of weeks. Jacob will have 3 booths there so he will be very busy and then school starts. We didn't even ever make it camping! :( Oh well, maybe next year. It has been crazy busy and super fun! Hope everyone else is having a great summer.